In the Quiet

It’s in the quiet

That I hear my own voice
I realize now
I’ve been running from it
Afraid of what might come out
Choosing a dead life
Full of must do’s and should do’s
All the while keeping from myself
The want to do’s
 Cause to choose them
would be to choose the quiet
choose life
choose me
and that’s just too scary

frozen land

The snow falls heavily
Silently
Muting everything
Colors, sounds…
Life
Nothing moves
Nothing makes a sound
The white
The quiet
All consuming
Peacefulness
Broken by a squeal of joy
A flash of red
Going down the hill
Children playing
Life in no life
Joy and warmth
In the cold
How easy to be found
A little reminder
While I was lost
In a frozen land

Can't turn away

It scares me so much
To love you the way I do
To want to tear down all these masks
I’ve had all these years
And stand before you
Naked
To let you beyond all the barriers
All the stone walls
Into this room no one else has entered
To be entirely open
To be completely vulnerable to you
It kills me that I’m so afraid
That I hurt you the way I do
That every time I’m about to let you in
I freak out
As fear takes hold
And I push you away
Beyond the walls of my castles
The edge of the moat
And the surrounding hills
Sometimes I think I prefer pain
To love
‘cause it seems to hurt less
But I can’t seem to turn away
From you
And so this game we’ll
Until I get over
This past pain that makes me so afraid
Or you get too tried to try again

Together

There are hushed voices
Matters of business
Trying to get an estate in order
Before the chaos
That follows an inevitable demise
Work is hard
And seemingly never ending
But this is how the family
Grieves
How the family feels useful
When helpless
Together we can take care
Of what must be done
Together we will lose
Her the best we can

Grey

The rain drips drearily down
Crying tears I won’t let fall
A solemn somber day
A mournful morning
Quiet by the graveside
As the pastor’s words echo
Through the barren trees
To the grey heavens above

fellowship

Quietly
Slowly
Each chair is placed
One by one
To form a make-shift circle
A powerful circle
For people gather here
From all over
And all walks of life
As equals united
By a common problem
A common solution
Together we seek
Support, hope and strength
Within our fellowship
Together
We trudge the road of happy destiny
And together we can learn
What it means
To make a life worth living

Hoping

I no longer hear
the sound of the water
As it rushes by
Day in and day out
I toil
Reeling in line after line
Mostly barren
Bait lost to the tide
Not even a nibble
A splash
A sight of a fish
All others have given up
But day after day
I let out the lines
And reel them in
Hoping that they’ll return
Some day