melancholy and the infinite saddness

(love the album FYI)

I find myself profoundly sad. I've spent my life depressed, but this is different somehow.

I worry I will never be loved entirely for who I completely am unconditionally. Worried that who I am will never be good enough. I've come to accept that there are people who love me to some degree, but I do not trust how much. I feel alone and unworthy of the love I give out.

I feel alone.