afraid to meet your gaze

I’m afraid to meet your gaze

To give you a chance

To glimpse the craziness in my head

The fluttering of my heart

The churnings in my soul

There’s so much

Too much

Inside

That I’m trying to keep hidden

From the eyes of the world

Afraid for their reaction

Their judgment

Their ousting me

Deeming me of unworthy

I feel too different

To be allowed

Wrong

So I pretend

To be anything but me

And don’t quite meet your eyes

Because I’d be too vulnerable

Too seen

So trembling I turn away

Cuz you already know too much

And I fear

You already see me

For me