this house.

I know it's almost completely different than it once was
but the pain of it all
the memories
are still so strong
I can still feel them as if they were happening right now
and yet things in my current life
feel so surreal
how do I let go of a past
that in many ways feels more real than the present
I'm trying so hard to hold on to the love of now
the people that care about me
the good things
that are numerous in my current life
but it's so hard
when bad is so ingrained
I want so much to overcome
all of this
it's not my fault for what happened in the past
but it will be my fault if I let it ruin
the whole of my future

I gotta find a way
to let go and move on