I need to fix this

I need to get off my ass and stop being a victim

I need to stop hurting the people I care about because I can't let go of the past

I need to do something, I can't wait for it to fix itself

I can't expect anyone to do anything for me

I need to remember what it is to live

why I want to live. I need to find a reason that doesn't involve other people

it's now or never

do I let my past win?

or do I get up and make life worth living.

I used to be so strong. time I figure it out. or I really should have just jumped all those years ago.