people come and go

sometimes my heart feels the ache of all of your absences.

It's crazy how people come in and out of our lives. some are but a flash, others seeming constants til one day we realize they faded away. Some are still there but in a shadow of the capacity they once were. others come and leave in a whirlwind.

The truth of the matter is I don't believe in forever, nor do I dare to count on anyone always being there (even myself). I open my heart to new people, knowing someday there will be pain (because I'm too aware to fool myself), but knowing if I ran from the pain I'd miss out on life and that'd be the biggest tragedy.

I don't want to stop feeling deeply, nor do I want to spend my life closed off out of fear of the pain that will come anyway and miss all the good in the process.

 I feel all of you who have at any point really mattered to me,  sometimes the heartache feels too great, but I know all of you have helped shape me and I know I carry all of you in my soul.

Life's too big an adventure to miss the future because were always wishing for the past.

you're all with me in a way and I'm grateful for whatever time we had...

“I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately, I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, To put to rout all that was not life and not when I had come to die Discover that I had not lived.” Henry David Thoreau