needing

I don’t know how to need
Don’t know how to be ok
With needing
Particularly this much
Can it be safe
To rely on another
Can it be ok
To be this vulnerable
Can I be worth
Being taken care of
Worth the time
Worth the effort
The inconvenience
Can I trust
That this willingness
 to take care of me
that it being ok
for me to need
can be done out of genuine caring
that I have inherent worth
that I won’t be punished
that not everyone is just waiting
for an opening to hurt me.